Saturday, November 26, 2005
Laundry Upper East 24
They've always told and taught me that times goes by only towards one direction, on a line that is impossible to turn around.
Maybe.
Or maybe one can try hard, if not to turn it all around, to make things emulated Most previous status Which Is Clearly Reminding of a specific preiod in time.
Like ... I do not know ... 1995.
I think this year with lots of girls in Their 20s will fell like teenagers again ...
25th November BBC News
I think nobody really got the full potential of November.
I have always said and taught that the time goes in one direction and is a line where you will never go back ever.
Maybe.
Or maybe you can bind, if not go back, to make as many things as possible to emulate their previous state, set clear and representative of a specific time.
How ... chess ... , 95.
I think there are so many teens feel that this year again teenagers ....
BBC news on 25 November
I believe that nobody has ever really understood the power of November.
Sunday, November 20, 2005
How To Make Uhf Transformer
hide and find
There must be, now I am sure, a mode where people can be alone even being surrounded by life. Even
even living with other people.
also awoke next to someone.
But I am not sure that this awareness is a calm my ragging positive.
I'm afraid to see me grow old and become cynical, chasing the wrong things in different ways and times. Especially
ways.
The shit will never, never, never chocolate.
There must be, now I am sure, a mode where people can be alone even being surrounded by life. Even
even living with other people.
also awoke next to someone.
But I am not sure that this awareness is a calm my ragging positive.
I'm afraid to see me grow old and become cynical, chasing the wrong things in different ways and times. Especially
ways.
The shit will never, never, never chocolate.
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
Can Cold Sore Live On Chapstick
November 16, 1995 - Here begins my story
Chiara was my best friend. As might be then. In that last year I do not know what happened but I decided that because of Serena e. .. Alessia believe, she was turned away from me.
I do not remember how to get started with Elisa.
Maybe after the summer, perhaps after the hospital in early October we became friends, but no. It was before then. When I stood firm
a week in the hospital with her plaits was already there. I remember the last day, when I left there we went together in radio. In the hospital I started to listen to the radio, and meal and Gladis, hearing requests for music and dedication of a young girl in hospital I became friends. When I left the hospital they went Elisa and I find together.
may have started to listen to the radio something had changed. Something was going on.
way home in the afternoons after school I began to discover a new channel that was not there before. Did not broadcast all day, from 2 to 7 pm only believe, but in the meantime we know that autumn, especially when daylight saving time was changed again in late September, the hours are the most beautiful sunset, from 4 onwards . So this new channel filled my afternoons.
Videomusic I think I found the previous year, when being Bergamasco remained until November, Raphael and Luciana showed me the video clips of TV stolen from a group with 5 guys. I think they were called ... Well no ... were Take That. Do not ask how the mind of a 11/12enne, but earlier that year had begun to broadcast a cartoon of a boy band, even if those were the New Kids on The Block, I mean those of the cartoon, and I associai the cartoon in these 5 guys I saw the first time when my television was still in my first room, the wooden cabinet in the corner in my room and my mother, where my place was "cucciosa" of metam bed to the window, and between the bed and the window, a gap the length of a girl of 6 / 8 years, at the foot of the bed was the television.
Well then maybe the late 94's something was going on.
But after the fall as I said, something changed, and this new channel from the 5 hours that day took all my attention, it was MTV. Not that it is now, that being Italian or foreign. MTV was one that sent all over Europe so I think. It was less organized, it was all just music and always "News at Night" and it was all in English language perarltro I was still totally unknown. Sometimes he spoke in Italian when Camila Dial, once missed talking about the new single from Blur, saying it was "The Great Escape", but that was the album released in late 1995, no song called that way, and the individual was Country House. There was MTV Video Lotto with Davina, Henry was already Silvestrin, but just think, well recently there was MTV Europe. Being a single agglomeration employee from London I do not think it was intended to promote some like Pulp or Blur themselves was simply what was passing MTV Europe, which in reality having base in England may have thought only to England.
But it was just that good! I heard about all day in particular that language, I began to create images at the top of the place where they were to be transmitted, and one day going to the station kiosk, where each month came a single copy of the official Take That I did very well taken, I saw Smash Hits, imported from England a week or two delay on the publication, without the gadgets offered along with the newspaper, but with the colored covers up with those characters ingenuamentecredevo that I have discovered only on the kind of pirate channel. It was a fortnight but there being used here in Italy I tried it a little more than a monthly basis. It collezionai 4 numbers in total, and leafed through those pages that do not understand anything but pictures of things that were strange to the channel, Blur on the cover (I think in October have found a number of late August, with cover blue blur and above), the pages in half with the designs of the clips and the lyrics (this earned him a lot of points to the newspaper from my point of view).
My whole view of things underwent a sudden expansion of which I believe I have been particularly conscious but I start to change everything.
At this time there was an Italy on a program called Generation X (Smith had made the film?) And occasionally looked at that too. I became a teenager in the world of arrogance without even realizing it and without having the age to do so. One day, among many things we rang 883, and I realized that something had changed (there were more) but having never been aware before they gave it weight. Except for that annoying little blond in the corner that only he believed to be good, even impertinence that exuded from the TV. He and his sax thought to come from where? was not the star he was Max, tsk! Even MTV
strangely sometimes send them a video, Music ... but that was after just ... after ... After a day
Elisa in a range, where we were in class with the blue linoleum on the floor and two large windows on the left, I said "There is a concert of 883 in a few weeks, I go there and you?"
In fact my last wish / foil after failing to parental inability (with caper that my mother was carrying a girl of 12 years in turin) the Take That concert on May 28 last year, after swearing I promise to his mother fate to take me to prosismo (blissful innocence) without being able to clearly know that there would never have been. Given the promise I would have burned the opportunity to see the 5 favorites (and my Mark!), And I could not. Also a few weeks before leaving, not I know if still with the same Clare or Elisa, one afternoon I finished the fifth sun (but it was the fifth sun? strange that the memory after years) ether and various trinkets ciondoletti chose one with a bead and Pegasus.
The contract was to be used in a shop pseudo fantasy anecdotes he told me that the pendant, which makes a wish when taking the first three nights under the pillow and then more and more worn and never removed or transferred.
got home that day with my pendant in my recent room staff at the end of the hallway to my mother after I had left six months before, where all the door, the walls, and a part of the ceiling, saying, "Take That "or" Mark ", my desire was almost too obvious. As a child Mark had to meet very passionate sooner or later, without innocently thought of not being able to say a word in a language they would understand. The pendant
after three days I rest firmly planted in the neck for one month until November, to which was added later after a cross linked in the same Stringhini, which I believe was a gift from a friend of my mother.
By Elisa told me about the concert, my innate personality "then too!" came out, and as if unconsciously, I had watched the TV in previous years, Max and 883 were inside the television, what effect would show someone who was inside a television? I was good at persuading, one day in early November came home from school my mother showed me the ticket, 2, taken from Othello, complete with a voucher to spend within one month from the date of the concert material 883. I
I organized with Elisa, and taking into account that this was not a concert of Take That there was no need to do as he had seen on TV and leave them in the morning. It was just alexandria, there were only 883, it was just a nightclub: the Master, go there an hour / half an hour before 8 would suffice.
the morning of November 16, 1995 I woke up and went to school finalizing the last details with Elisa, and in the afternoon, going to the stationery of Sandra, who was divenatta our friend, I went for the graphic designer who was Fiand of her for me to do a sort of poster / banner for the evening. 7/7.30 to think I was on the point of the new mom along the SS35bis of Jupiter, and once you get to the Master, no more than 20 people and many cars had them. My mother ... I think she stood a bit behind, I'm not even sure that would have seen the concert, maybe they would stop talking to Victor, who were many years that we knew from the 70 when she went to the disco and he had his first clubs property.
When approached from inside the gate they all began to pile up, and so I to be right in front of where they would open on the left, the only shelf I knew the master was that of the small room where there was a disco in the afternoon of the days of carnival. In the few seconds that it opened the barred two big man took the place of all blocking, and I was appiccicataa one of these. It was a moment.
"All stop!, Then I look down on me and just moved my arm" you, go! "
I was a natural talent I think, slipped under his arm and ran training courses for up to discover that the rooms had become the master one, and that on the opposite side, right, was a stage to embarrass the children's room for the carnival.
E courses, courses, with my only pair of jeans with beads and strips purple and pink, my new shirts on one another, that in jeans and that he did so "I put the advertising levis" bought shortly after the hospital, half of red flannel with white sleeves, with the words behind "garage music Alternative." Courses up to slam into account the barrier, in the highest part where he spent the deck of the wires from the mixer to the stage.
I was in the front row at the exact center. When after a while
arrival Elisa and I found them, that he could not compliment, and she crept close to me.
The concert seemed to never start, we went to 8 but I believe that up to 10.30/11, nothing happened.
And I remember that when in doubt due to the time that passed I was afraid it would be all fake, that nothing would happen, until I flashed the idea but now he was there, the instruments were on stage, Max and the others had to be just around the next day everything was already done.
When it all began for a time lost consciousness at the beginning of things, trying to make it clear to myself that this was not the TV and that was in the flesh, that it was the Max for a long time I had seen on TV .
Up to a few songs ... then I do not know what happened exactly ... I turned and saw that hideous blond .... But that did not seem so odious. Entusiasita seemed humble to be there where he was. And there came out of my very nature, they came out in the free expression of non-pemeditato being the first time.
At some point I realized that the only way to be noticed in a crowd that was waving and yelling ... do nothing.
And after seeing what I had ever seen on television, that was the instinct: I wanted to be seen.
And staring in mobile, he saw me, saw me and smiled, arching his eyebrows as seguto I learned so well to recognize as one of its distinguishing features. I think in my mind this game looks and flirting went on for the duration of the concert, until near the end when Max began to present them all, finally and with my attention as I discovered in carprine.
That was Michael. That was Michael
Monestiroli.
That was the beginning of everything.
I shook his hand around to Pegasus as it did with Bastian Aurin. I wanted to do something, I wanted to keep it, I wanted to continue to be seen.
When it was over and the moment when I knew they ran behind my answer. I also skipped the question. Elisa was gone and I tried my mother like a robot, which I found not far from Victor and his wife, and began to repeat my litany "I have to see Michael. I have to give him that."
I had removed the strap with Pegasus and cross.
Without having to think about how I felt the most important is the remote possibility of seeing Michael and ensure that it will be recalled for me, much, much more important than ever to see what I thought be the love of my life, twelve years. Mark.
My mother took me to Victor, I was stunned I did not follow their words just kept saying "I see Michael, I must give him that!"
Victor looked at me with the air that adults have when they smile and say to a child "and Vabene ..." and I just said "follow me"
The Master was not large, we will not thirty seconds to cross from the entrance to the track illuminated the stairs ... but maybe that's where I started to feel so attentive to the moments. When Victor passed the barrier of people that formed towards the rear of the stage, one of the big man had to hang Upon your time that Victor said promptly, "no no, it is with me" and once exceeded people, already behind, even then I understood for the first time in the ingorglionimento feel insulted just because others will envy. With air
father Vittorio spoke ... I do not remember exactly who, more or less saying "hey, this girl does not want to go home if you do not see Michael and I talk to the person said something like" no problem "and disappeared. I do not think he spent a minute there, either ... and do not remember when I thought, or if my mother was telling me to remove from the pendant cross, and leave only Pegasus. I did not know that after years was everything that I would have clung to remember that I was wearing ten years. Thought that was a smart one to take it off and keep it from pendant.
Maybe I did in those brief moments ... before seeing him come out from the curtains blacks.
Handsome, blond and smiling.
I never stuttered before, and clutching the pendant. I do not remember, I do not remember what I said and I do not remember if I showed up. All I remember is that Pegasus held out, saying "this has brought me luck, and hope that leads to you"
he took it, smiling, sweet, but so sweet, and continuing to say "thank you, thank you very much"
not stop him ' I never asked but I think I had given attention first to realize that the girl was under the stage. That was me.
When I turned and walked away I was fixing to make the seconds before it disappeared behind the curtain blacks, of again ...
I was stunned. I was lost.
It was after midnight on Thursday, November 16, was 17, Friday.
was the night between 16 and 17 November 1995.
It 's the night that I lost, and for which I am convinced, everything in my life was functional.
Chiara was my best friend. As might be then. In that last year I do not know what happened but I decided that because of Serena e. .. Alessia believe, she was turned away from me.
I do not remember how to get started with Elisa.
Maybe after the summer, perhaps after the hospital in early October we became friends, but no. It was before then. When I stood firm
a week in the hospital with her plaits was already there. I remember the last day, when I left there we went together in radio. In the hospital I started to listen to the radio, and meal and Gladis, hearing requests for music and dedication of a young girl in hospital I became friends. When I left the hospital they went Elisa and I find together.
may have started to listen to the radio something had changed. Something was going on.
way home in the afternoons after school I began to discover a new channel that was not there before. Did not broadcast all day, from 2 to 7 pm only believe, but in the meantime we know that autumn, especially when daylight saving time was changed again in late September, the hours are the most beautiful sunset, from 4 onwards . So this new channel filled my afternoons.
Videomusic I think I found the previous year, when being Bergamasco remained until November, Raphael and Luciana showed me the video clips of TV stolen from a group with 5 guys. I think they were called ... Well no ... were Take That. Do not ask how the mind of a 11/12enne, but earlier that year had begun to broadcast a cartoon of a boy band, even if those were the New Kids on The Block, I mean those of the cartoon, and I associai the cartoon in these 5 guys I saw the first time when my television was still in my first room, the wooden cabinet in the corner in my room and my mother, where my place was "cucciosa" of metam bed to the window, and between the bed and the window, a gap the length of a girl of 6 / 8 years, at the foot of the bed was the television.
Well then maybe the late 94's something was going on.
But after the fall as I said, something changed, and this new channel from the 5 hours that day took all my attention, it was MTV. Not that it is now, that being Italian or foreign. MTV was one that sent all over Europe so I think. It was less organized, it was all just music and always "News at Night" and it was all in English language perarltro I was still totally unknown. Sometimes he spoke in Italian when Camila Dial, once missed talking about the new single from Blur, saying it was "The Great Escape", but that was the album released in late 1995, no song called that way, and the individual was Country House. There was MTV Video Lotto with Davina, Henry was already Silvestrin, but just think, well recently there was MTV Europe. Being a single agglomeration employee from London I do not think it was intended to promote some like Pulp or Blur themselves was simply what was passing MTV Europe, which in reality having base in England may have thought only to England.
But it was just that good! I heard about all day in particular that language, I began to create images at the top of the place where they were to be transmitted, and one day going to the station kiosk, where each month came a single copy of the official Take That I did very well taken, I saw Smash Hits, imported from England a week or two delay on the publication, without the gadgets offered along with the newspaper, but with the colored covers up with those characters ingenuamentecredevo that I have discovered only on the kind of pirate channel. It was a fortnight but there being used here in Italy I tried it a little more than a monthly basis. It collezionai 4 numbers in total, and leafed through those pages that do not understand anything but pictures of things that were strange to the channel, Blur on the cover (I think in October have found a number of late August, with cover blue blur and above), the pages in half with the designs of the clips and the lyrics (this earned him a lot of points to the newspaper from my point of view).
My whole view of things underwent a sudden expansion of which I believe I have been particularly conscious but I start to change everything.
At this time there was an Italy on a program called Generation X (Smith had made the film?) And occasionally looked at that too. I became a teenager in the world of arrogance without even realizing it and without having the age to do so. One day, among many things we rang 883, and I realized that something had changed (there were more) but having never been aware before they gave it weight. Except for that annoying little blond in the corner that only he believed to be good, even impertinence that exuded from the TV. He and his sax thought to come from where? was not the star he was Max, tsk! Even MTV
strangely sometimes send them a video, Music ... but that was after just ... after ... After a day
Elisa in a range, where we were in class with the blue linoleum on the floor and two large windows on the left, I said "There is a concert of 883 in a few weeks, I go there and you?"
In fact my last wish / foil after failing to parental inability (with caper that my mother was carrying a girl of 12 years in turin) the Take That concert on May 28 last year, after swearing I promise to his mother fate to take me to prosismo (blissful innocence) without being able to clearly know that there would never have been. Given the promise I would have burned the opportunity to see the 5 favorites (and my Mark!), And I could not. Also a few weeks before leaving, not I know if still with the same Clare or Elisa, one afternoon I finished the fifth sun (but it was the fifth sun? strange that the memory after years) ether and various trinkets ciondoletti chose one with a bead and Pegasus.
The contract was to be used in a shop pseudo fantasy anecdotes he told me that the pendant, which makes a wish when taking the first three nights under the pillow and then more and more worn and never removed or transferred.
got home that day with my pendant in my recent room staff at the end of the hallway to my mother after I had left six months before, where all the door, the walls, and a part of the ceiling, saying, "Take That "or" Mark ", my desire was almost too obvious. As a child Mark had to meet very passionate sooner or later, without innocently thought of not being able to say a word in a language they would understand. The pendant
after three days I rest firmly planted in the neck for one month until November, to which was added later after a cross linked in the same Stringhini, which I believe was a gift from a friend of my mother.
By Elisa told me about the concert, my innate personality "then too!" came out, and as if unconsciously, I had watched the TV in previous years, Max and 883 were inside the television, what effect would show someone who was inside a television? I was good at persuading, one day in early November came home from school my mother showed me the ticket, 2, taken from Othello, complete with a voucher to spend within one month from the date of the concert material 883. I
I organized with Elisa, and taking into account that this was not a concert of Take That there was no need to do as he had seen on TV and leave them in the morning. It was just alexandria, there were only 883, it was just a nightclub: the Master, go there an hour / half an hour before 8 would suffice.
the morning of November 16, 1995 I woke up and went to school finalizing the last details with Elisa, and in the afternoon, going to the stationery of Sandra, who was divenatta our friend, I went for the graphic designer who was Fiand of her for me to do a sort of poster / banner for the evening. 7/7.30 to think I was on the point of the new mom along the SS35bis of Jupiter, and once you get to the Master, no more than 20 people and many cars had them. My mother ... I think she stood a bit behind, I'm not even sure that would have seen the concert, maybe they would stop talking to Victor, who were many years that we knew from the 70 when she went to the disco and he had his first clubs property.
When approached from inside the gate they all began to pile up, and so I to be right in front of where they would open on the left, the only shelf I knew the master was that of the small room where there was a disco in the afternoon of the days of carnival. In the few seconds that it opened the barred two big man took the place of all blocking, and I was appiccicataa one of these. It was a moment.
"All stop!, Then I look down on me and just moved my arm" you, go! "
I was a natural talent I think, slipped under his arm and ran training courses for up to discover that the rooms had become the master one, and that on the opposite side, right, was a stage to embarrass the children's room for the carnival.
E courses, courses, with my only pair of jeans with beads and strips purple and pink, my new shirts on one another, that in jeans and that he did so "I put the advertising levis" bought shortly after the hospital, half of red flannel with white sleeves, with the words behind "garage music Alternative." Courses up to slam into account the barrier, in the highest part where he spent the deck of the wires from the mixer to the stage.
I was in the front row at the exact center. When after a while
arrival Elisa and I found them, that he could not compliment, and she crept close to me.
The concert seemed to never start, we went to 8 but I believe that up to 10.30/11, nothing happened.
And I remember that when in doubt due to the time that passed I was afraid it would be all fake, that nothing would happen, until I flashed the idea but now he was there, the instruments were on stage, Max and the others had to be just around the next day everything was already done.
When it all began for a time lost consciousness at the beginning of things, trying to make it clear to myself that this was not the TV and that was in the flesh, that it was the Max for a long time I had seen on TV .
Up to a few songs ... then I do not know what happened exactly ... I turned and saw that hideous blond .... But that did not seem so odious. Entusiasita seemed humble to be there where he was. And there came out of my very nature, they came out in the free expression of non-pemeditato being the first time.
At some point I realized that the only way to be noticed in a crowd that was waving and yelling ... do nothing.
And after seeing what I had ever seen on television, that was the instinct: I wanted to be seen.
And staring in mobile, he saw me, saw me and smiled, arching his eyebrows as seguto I learned so well to recognize as one of its distinguishing features. I think in my mind this game looks and flirting went on for the duration of the concert, until near the end when Max began to present them all, finally and with my attention as I discovered in carprine.
That was Michael. That was Michael
Monestiroli.
That was the beginning of everything.
I shook his hand around to Pegasus as it did with Bastian Aurin. I wanted to do something, I wanted to keep it, I wanted to continue to be seen.
When it was over and the moment when I knew they ran behind my answer. I also skipped the question. Elisa was gone and I tried my mother like a robot, which I found not far from Victor and his wife, and began to repeat my litany "I have to see Michael. I have to give him that."
I had removed the strap with Pegasus and cross.
Without having to think about how I felt the most important is the remote possibility of seeing Michael and ensure that it will be recalled for me, much, much more important than ever to see what I thought be the love of my life, twelve years. Mark.
My mother took me to Victor, I was stunned I did not follow their words just kept saying "I see Michael, I must give him that!"
Victor looked at me with the air that adults have when they smile and say to a child "and Vabene ..." and I just said "follow me"
The Master was not large, we will not thirty seconds to cross from the entrance to the track illuminated the stairs ... but maybe that's where I started to feel so attentive to the moments. When Victor passed the barrier of people that formed towards the rear of the stage, one of the big man had to hang Upon your time that Victor said promptly, "no no, it is with me" and once exceeded people, already behind, even then I understood for the first time in the ingorglionimento feel insulted just because others will envy. With air
father Vittorio spoke ... I do not remember exactly who, more or less saying "hey, this girl does not want to go home if you do not see Michael and I talk to the person said something like" no problem "and disappeared. I do not think he spent a minute there, either ... and do not remember when I thought, or if my mother was telling me to remove from the pendant cross, and leave only Pegasus. I did not know that after years was everything that I would have clung to remember that I was wearing ten years. Thought that was a smart one to take it off and keep it from pendant.
Maybe I did in those brief moments ... before seeing him come out from the curtains blacks.
Handsome, blond and smiling.
I never stuttered before, and clutching the pendant. I do not remember, I do not remember what I said and I do not remember if I showed up. All I remember is that Pegasus held out, saying "this has brought me luck, and hope that leads to you"
he took it, smiling, sweet, but so sweet, and continuing to say "thank you, thank you very much"
not stop him ' I never asked but I think I had given attention first to realize that the girl was under the stage. That was me.
When I turned and walked away I was fixing to make the seconds before it disappeared behind the curtain blacks, of again ...
I was stunned. I was lost.
It was after midnight on Thursday, November 16, was 17, Friday.
was the night between 16 and 17 November 1995.
It 's the night that I lost, and for which I am convinced, everything in my life was functional.
Saturday, November 12, 2005
Pokemon Store In Sydney
Towards the deeper green
Who's on the internet knows, it is believed that the fastest thing ever is the best.
The Pioneers have waited so long for too long with hamsters on wheels for the modem.
The wait time is a vacuum that gets your foot and say "So ...?"
fast. No waiting.
The fast response times do not have time to rephrase the question.
and not replace. Always make new ones.
Add, never replace.
Do it now, and ever more.
No matter where it ends (does it go?) But imports have the chance. The possibility
. Being able, and potentially no less. Why
is never so important to succeed, but knowing that you could. Say
secretly convinced that it is.
you'll be the only human being to live forever
You can not give you time to feel that it is not true.
you can not block and turn around to see you for what you really are.
Why are you, right?
And there are lots of little tiny crumbs that never stop.
I can not slow down
Why risk all that is beautiful is fast, always faster and faster.
That is beautiful is good, and you always want something good.
good is nice, but good and beautiful are now the same
and then it becomes difficult to describe just what are the good feelings and good intentions
the good deeds and good thoughts
a horrifying monster that seeks only to go to the deeper green
running fast, faster.
to keep up to others to be fast enough not to lose at least be able to
in potential, the possibility
to be seen. finally.
Monday, November 7, 2005
Airwalk Guy Moccasins
Shanahan's
I was Expecting so much more.
I was dreaming so much more.
But now everything seems to just flow over me.
I fels aliver being here just for a few days, why haven't I, nor just feel, but BEEN alive in almost a year?
What the hell am I focusing on to lose the joy to live like this?
This is not me, really not.
I was Expecting so much more.
I was dreaming so much more.
But now everything seems to just flow over me.
I fels aliver being here just for a few days, why haven't I, nor just feel, but BEEN alive in almost a year?
What the hell am I focusing on to lose the joy to live like this?
This is not me, really not.
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